Saturday, April 30, 2011

ONE WORD AT A TIME

As a mother who became such- because of the miracle of adoption, I feel that it is my place to become a birthparent advocate. So many people believe in old school stereotypes when it comes to adoption. None of which I am going to repeat because it only reinforces the incorrect assumptions.

Words are power. We must chose our words wisely. And when one is speaking of a birthparent or their situation, words are very powerful. It is my point today to provide you all with a little education about the words that are appropriate to use in the new world of adoption. It takes one person at a time to change their words before it can become a pandemic of powerful enlightenment to the truth.

A birth mother does NOT "give up" her child. A person does not give up something they love, rather they give up a negative habit.
A birth mother does NOT "give away" her child. We give things away that we don't want. I've never met a woman who didn't want her child.
A birth mother does NOT "adopt out" her child. Babies are not kittens in a box at the front of the pet store.
And if a birth parent decides against adoption, they didn't decide to "keep it." As if the baby were an old couch they were debating getting rid of.

Birth parents either chose to "parent their child" or "place their child with an adoptive family" because they love their child so much that they want to provide the very best life for them. Every mother has a dream for her child and that doesn't change with an unexpected pregnancy. I physically cringe every time I hear someone say "she gave up her baby." Yet I don't know if educating them will make a difference.

I'm asking you to change your words so we can change the misconception about birth parents and steer away from the negative tone around the situation.

Change your words - change your world
It's a choice to change a few simple words.... just watch the power of a few simple words -


Friday, April 29, 2011

SMIRKY


I missed it. 
I thought it was tomorrow. 
So I came home from work and gently forced a longer than necessary nap  for Layla  for as long as it would take to watch the online recaps.
And then some.
Don't judge. This wedding is a big deal.
I'm as in love with Kate as her Prince is. 
The ideal combination of modern, sleek, simple, and vintage.

My favorite part of the entire royal wedding... 
The fact that the happy couple could barely keep their giddy smirks to themselves. 
Neither of them could mutter their vows without hiding their smile. 

I can't wait to watch them make royal babies.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

KAYSVILLE SPORTS PLEX - GUEST POST

Bounce over to Kaysville Sports Plex Blog to chiggity check out the post I wrote for them.


The Busy Mom's Guide to Training for a Half Marathon

Kday and I recently joined the SportsPlex and I'm loving it.

Monday, April 25, 2011

HERE AND THERE

There was Easter egg dyeing
Here is our sticker obsession
There were smiles
Here are Easter egg hunts
There was loot... a lot of it
Here is our family
And there was lots and lots of family time.


And it wouldn't be Easter without a little football game

Buca is saying "hut hut hut... touchdown!"


There was a lot of excitement this weekend. So much so that Buca decided to sleep until 9:30 am today.
Awesomeness



Friday, April 22, 2011

ONE.TWENTY.SEVEN

Today I'm happy. 


I'm excited to spend the beautiful Easter weekend with my loverly family. 
There will be sugar cookies made and decorated.
Egg dyeing.
Easter egg hunts.
And darling little easter dresses with sparkling shoes and piggy tails.
And exciting baskets filled with goodies.

But more importantly - MUCH more importantly....
A weekend of gratitude expressed for my Savior and the atonement
I'm more sure of that today than any other day of my life. 
And that knowledge will be celebrated this weekend. 

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

SPRING CLEAN CRASH

Usually this is where I post something super inspirational about how I've just finished all my spring cleaning and organized every square inch of the house. That aint happnin today peeps. It's not for lack of desire. I am going ballistic thinking about all the things I need to do to prepare for spring and summer. I have long lists of all the spring cleaning tasks and chores, I just can't really figure out where to start. Where does one start digging when you're buried up to your forehead in tasks...?
I'm staring at my exciting list of things to do to prepare for upcoming events and all I really feel like doing is this....




I need your help to get focused and motivated. So leave a comment with your best advice :)

Monday, April 18, 2011

SENSATIONALLY PROFOUND



Saturdays race was more noteworthy than many past races. This one is right up there with the Pumpkin Man Tri last October, that one sent me to the moon.
I woke up to rain, unexpectedly,  and I was 20 minutes late picking Becky up because I couldn't decide what to wear with the sudden weather change. Finally we make it onto the freeway and my stomach was in knots until we slid into our parking spot perfectly near the start line. At which point my stomach began to churn with more nerves and the restless need to stand in line for 40 minutes to utilize a rancid port' a potty. One that had been used by well over 1,000 nervous runners before me. Sick.
We stroll up to the start line with literally 5 seconds to spare as they count down the gun start. I slipped on the our new custom tether and we reassured each other that we could totally handle this race.

We were off and running all the while enjoying a little light conversation about Becky's husband going shirtless through airport security when I checked our pace. I had told Kday to meet us at Sugarhouse park at around the 1 hour mark and I quickly realized that I had way underestimated our pace. I tried to take advantage of the down hill areas in the beginning of the course, so Becky and I were humming right along at a 10 min flat pace. For us, that's smokin. So when we made it to mile 4.5 at Sugarhouse in 40 minutes the worry that Kday would miss us became a reality. I spent the next two miles worrying that he might wait around too long at the park and miss the finish.  I slammed a Roctane Gu down and I was feeling superb. Until mile 7, at which point I started to bonk and by mile 9 at Liberty park I was doing everything possible not to lose my cookies. At this point my chest felt like 5,000 lbs and my vision was starting to become blurry and splotchy -yikes... talk about the blind leading the blind!

It became a necessity to slow our pace down to about a 12 min mile which really had me discouraged. We had been 2 min/mile faster than I had expected and I really wanted to keep that pace up if possible. My heart thought it possible by my body performance was rapidly waning. I knew another Roctane would feel awesome but I also knew that I wouldn't be able to keep it down long enough to benefit from it. So we slowed for a bit until my stomach settled and I caught my breath.

Then the state street hill from hell began. Our plan of attack was to focus on making it to one stop light at a time. Our pace still slower than before, around 11:45 min mile... we ever so steadily pushed ourselves up this piddly little hill that feels like K2 after 11 miles of running. My vision was still hit and miss of a blurry mess but I we just kept running. Right at the peak of the hill before we turned on to South Temple - Becky said, "do you want to walk?" I laughed with what little breath I had to spare and said "Becky, you know I don't walk during races... besides, we didn't run all this way to walk at mile 12." She smiled (probably much against her will) and agreed with me. Poor thing probably knew she had no choice :)
By this point she was practically dragging my fat keister down So. Temple and I was totally blown. My legs had no juice left and my emotions were all over the place.

I started to cry. Shizzle sticks, what else is new? I would cry for about 3 seconds and then try to muster more strength and pull myself together. Then the tears would come again for a matter of seconds before the cycle repeated itself. Becky said, "I wish I had something inspirational to say but..." I said, "I know. I need to stop crying and just run." I picked up the tempo again because I told Becky we needed to finish under a 12 min mile. So we rounded the corner in front of the Union Station and finally arrived to the entrance of the Gateway. The streets were lined with cheering spectators and although I was prepared for the crowds, I had no idea just how much their applause would affect me. I couldn't keep it together for one more second. I started crying as I felt like every single person there was encouraging me to finish the race strong. My body awareness was completely forgotten and without effort we sprinted through the cobblestone path to the finish.

This is where I almost ate it :)
Out of the corner of my eye I spotted a little Buca baby on her daddy's shoulders. Pig tails pointed in two different directions as she scoured the crowd to try to find her mama. I yelled for her and smiled at kday with tears in my eyes. I was so happy he was there to see us accomplish such a challenging race. My legs were numb at which point I almost ate asphalt as I waved with such joy to see my family and I lost my footing. That would have sucked. We made it though, we crossed the finish and I couldn't do anything but sob. Becky carried me through this race. I absolutely couldn't have done it without her. My hero. Hero's can be each other's hero's right? 


At one point near the beginning of the race I looked up ahead... and down the road for at least a mile in front of us were bobbing heads filling the street. Runners, shoulder to shoulder flooding down the beautiful roads of Utah, and behind me for a mile the same view. It was such a profound moment to realize the grandiosity of the  phenomenon I was a part of. I tried to describe the incredible view and sensation to Becky but I was at a loss for words. Eleven thousand racers all together at this point before the marathon and half marathon course split up. It was sensationally profound.
Each other's hero.
Our finish time according to my Garmin (which paused for potty stops) was 2:24:42. An 11:06 minute mile pace. Holy smokes. Thats super rad for us. Almost 2 min mile faster than our first half marathon and a 30 min faster overall time. No wonder I was about to have a stroke on State Street. We're awesome. Just ask us :)

Saturday, April 16, 2011

P.O

Resting my blogging fingers and my legs after a very emotional and super rad race today.
1/2 Marathon recap on Monday. Yay.
For now, Buca says PEACE OUT.

Friday, April 15, 2011

BIRTHDAY BOY AND A HARD DAY

My my Mr Kashi's 4th birthday today. I was supposed to get up early and go for a run with him... just the two of us. But I stayed up till 1 am organizing the laundry room and then slept in till 7:20 at which point I realized I had less than 60 minutes to get up/showered/dressed and to my first appointment for the day. Sorry Kash. I promise you a play date with your girlfriend Cricket tonight. It will be fun. And a field trip to morrow. Promise.

Yesterday was a downright crappy day. Work was horrible, I was the victim of office gossip due to miscommunication and I was not allowed the opportunity to rectify the situation. Double stupid. And I came home and unloaded on Rita. Poor woman had to hear me cry over spilled milk. So I took it upon myself to take a pitty nap. And when I woke up I had a gift on my door. She's the sweetest. This super cute gift and a little chocolate went a long way for me. I turned the day around and quit feeling sorry for myself. And the stress was  a good trigger for me to get some much needed organizing done anyway.
Thanks Rita!
Happy Tax Day.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

READY OR NOT...

Dear half marathon race,
I'm sorry I haven't prepared for you as thoroughly as the St. George race. But time has officially run out and you have succeeded at sneaking up on me like a ninja in the night. 
So please go easy on me Saturday, I promise I'll run your route with a smile if you'll cooperate with my wishes. 
See you Saturday.
Love, Sday Running

Well, whatever... I'll do my best and hopefully I'll have a lot to talk about during the race. It always makes the time and pain pass a little more quickly. Becky and I are hoping to improve our time from St George. This will be our fourth race together and I am still honored to show up to the start/finish line with her. We've been through so much together and Saturday is sure to prove another bonding experience. Come cheer for us... I need all the motivation mid course I can get! 

Go HERE for more race info.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

UNEXPECTED GRACE

Mmm.. yummy
I have a slight fixation for really awesome music that I like to listen to over and over and over (it drives Kday banana's) and I also have a mega fetish for laundry. Especially baby laundry. Ghah! I know Buca isn't a baby... fine! Toddler laundry is almost as great as the teensy weensy beenio onsies. Anyway, back to the postulate of this post.

Monday afternoon the sun was shining through the window, my newest favored song playing on repeat in the background, the Buca was asleep and I was folding little mini pairs of socks. I found myself in one of those time-stopping moments when the quiet whisperings of Grace entered my mind. Sometimes I joke with Kday that it's hard to discerne between "the still small voice" and all the other voices in my head! But really, I had a moment of absolute peaceful Grace. 

When I hear the word "Grace," I typically think of a woman far greater and completely opposite than I. A woman of poise, strength, dignity, humility, and of gentle nature. For shiz, total opposite of me. Nonetheless, my eyes have been opened to a deeper interpretation of this beautiful term. 
"The free and unmerited favor of God... and the bestowal of blessings." 


This little moment was super awesome and it was really something I needed. When things like this happen my first instinct is to assume that it's a coincidence or just a random musing that I conjured up in my mind. But then I remembered a quote that someone recently emailed me - by Elder Bednar:
"The tender mercies of the Lord are real, they do not occur randomly or by coincidence." 

It's so awesome to feel understood and to be reminded that the Lord knows and remembers every on of his sheep. It was the simplest of thoughts that came to mind and one that I really don't necessarily deserve. The unexpected graces of God are the little favors he does for us to remind us he knows us on a deeply personal level. 

Huh, who would have thought matching socks and folding baby jeggins would have brought about such profound notions? I know, I'm a little koo-koo for coco puffs. 

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

STRENGTH & FLEXIBILITY

My little Buca is the LIGHT in my life

"Cracks in our life is how the light gets in."
 Dr. John Briere
Becky's blog recently listed this quote from a conference she attended. 
For Hope Group last night we had a yoga instructor as a guest speaker, she taught breathing techniques that are helpful when one finds themselves amidst a panic attack or otherwise stressful situation. We also reviewed a few simple yoga poses that allow for meditation, strength and flexibility. That combo- Strength and Flexibility struck me with an almost literal impact. It's the most perfect combination of two characteristics that I desire to hone. In no way, shape or form have I ever considered myself as an emotionally "strong" person, and if you've ever met me... you are laughing out loud at the idea of me being flexible. It's practically an impossible feat. But I'm overwhelmingly intrigued by the the relationship these two attributes could cultivate in my daily life.
Here's my point-
The unexpected (challenges and blessings) in life force us to practice flexibility.
I believe it's in our times of flexibility that we find our hidden strength.
Flexibility creates time to allow enough space in our lives for the Grace of God to filter in. 


I'm trying to find strength and flexibility in the unexpected-ness that my life's journey is offering me right now. I'm loving it and I think I'll love it even more as my flexibility grows. 


Monday, April 11, 2011

EMMANUEL

Saturday morning I awoke to fluffy white snowflakes drifting around my world. Spring was blanketed by winter once again. The weather wouldn't be a factor in my race on this day, the cause was too great.
MOTHERS WITHOUT BORDERS and Give 'em 5 for children in Zambia.
Becky and I ran the 5K together and the weather held off for the exact 35 min it took us to complete the race. As soon as we crossed the line, the snow began to fall again. Each of us ran for a child in Zambia, their photo and story written on our number tag.


Emmanuel was the young boy whom I ran for on Saturday, here is his story:
"When Emmanuel was young, both of his parents died. He, along with his older brother Charles and his younger sister Exhilda, were brought by relatives to live with their grandfather. Unfortunately, this was not a safe environment for any of the children especially Exhilda. The home was filthy and the grandfather abused Exhilda. To add to these horrible circumstances, the children had to walk 3 miles every day to Bwafano (a charitable organization) where they were given their only meal. In 2006, Emmanuel, Charles and Exhilda came to the Mother's Without Borders Children's Resource Center to live. Emmanuel is now 8 years old and in grade 2. He is almost unrecognizable to those who met in in 2006. He is outgoing and loves to have fun - at times to the point of being mischievous. He is the youngest in his grade, but he is extremely clever."


This race event was one of the BEST events I've participated in. It will be an annual race and the cost is low with 100% of the proceeds going to Zambia to build homes. They were extremely organized, great hype and excitement at the start/finish line which included an archway of ballons, and rediculous amounts of delicious food after the 5K race. If you'd like to participate in donating to this awesome cause you can go HERE. And you better believe we'll be running again next year!

Mother's Without Borders was founded in response to the devastation being caused by the HIV/AIDS pandemic. They address the needs of orphaned and abandoned children in a holist manner. The provide safe shelter, food, education, and access to caring adults who mentor, encourage, and love.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

MY BOYFRIEND & SORTING LIFE OUT

My boyfriend finally arrived and he's uber handsome. We've been spending a little less time together than I had anticipated but we're getting to know each other and we're still working on trying to orient him to my past computer. So unfortunately I have no photo for this post, which I am well aware of how annoying that is. Too bad.
I've been reminiscing about Layla's adoption experience for an unknown reason. Maybe it's the time of year that we were going through such chaos 2 years ago, maybe it's the sign of spring and new life, a birth from mother nature of sorts. The majority of this reminiscing happens while I've been hard at work while elbow deep in the spring cleaning process. I've just been feeling the itch to clean, sort, organize and simplify. Something is in the air here, I just sense a change or an event approaching. I've been feeling this way for months. Maybe it's all in my crazy little noggin, there's a lot of stuff in there that makes zero sense. Either way, life needs to be in order and spring time is the best excuse to start the organization ball rolling. If not for any other reason than it makes summer more enjoyable to spend time doing fun adventures with the family instead of shuffling through piles of unnessesary item just to find that can of sunblock you knew you had.
So for me, it's not only time to sort out my container drawer, but it's time to sort out a little bit of life also.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

MEDICAL TAPE - AND A NEW BOYFRIEND


I just can't take it anymore, my RSS feeder was about to explode and I have so many things to say. Mostly stupid, random musings that I'm sure most of you only feel obligated to read about. But none the less, I have a lot on my mind and I'm going bananas waiting for my new boyfriend to get here. Boyfriend = new computer. I think he needs a name. Any ideas?

It was loaded on the Fed"X" truck at 7:06 am and is en-route..... hmmm wonder where exactly it is at this very second?

As for my ex-boyfriend (poor old nameless computer) I've salvaged a few more days of use out of it by using medical tape to hold things in all the right places. Thus giving me momentary battery power and such.

It's thundering and raining out, a perfect day to sit on the couch and stare out the window whilst I await my new Knight in single pieced aluminum armor to arrive.

Monday, April 4, 2011

IT'S A GONNER

My haggard  computer used to be on the fritz. Now it's about one eulogy short of being cremated. It took me 1.5 hours 3.25 hours just to squeeze enough use out of it to get this post up. But don't fret my pets! A new one is in the mail. So in a matter of a few days I'll be back. For now, here's a recap on the weekend. Mormon Miami was awesome as usual. Conference rocked my world. I got a tan, Kday podium-ed at his race and won us a little cash-ola. I spent the winnings, and then some. We had a fabulous time and now I'm home yelling at my computer that shuts down every 1.5 minutes and takes about 15 min to re-boot. I have cleared my schedule this week and the weather is looking favorable. So off I go to enjoy. See you when my computers is on the up swing.