Night Run #1

That's not a lightning bolt... just my trusty head-lamp :) Although, some day I'll be fast enough that I could actually create an lightning bolt....

Wednesday Jan. 20, 2010:

I tried and tried all day to get out during the speckled moments of blue sky and get some MUCH needed Vitamin D during a run. But Lady has been sick and not wanting to leave my arms for much other than a lot of warm baths. I think I gave her 4 baths today (long story.) Anyway, I finally got around to my run that I promised myself I would do today. I told kday that it was do or die. So around 11:00 pm I headed out for a quickie. (get your mind out of the gutter.... a quickie run)

I JUST GOT A NEW NiKE-iP0D for Christmas and tonight was my first time using it. I haven't really played with it enough to figure out all the bells and whistles but here's what the pleasant voice stated through my earbuds at the end of my run:

Distance: 2.25 miles

Time: 25:51

Speed: 11:27 min/mi

Nothing to be proud of. It was short and slow... but it's only the beginning. (the voice didn't say that... I did :)

Kash came too.

And P.S.: I HATE the way I look right now. I swear my nose even gets fat when I gain weight. But I just have to have faith in the process. It's worked before and it will work again.

June= 140 lbs.

LET'S BE HONEST...

I wish I could tell you that I've been running my ever widening buns off. I have to be honest here though, I haven't even been setting my alarm to get up at 5:50 am to run. After weeks of hitting the SnooZ button over and over and over and over.... I finally gave in and just set it to 7 am.

I don't know what my problem is! I have been working weekly with my dietitian and I'm trying to get motivated. But I am really, really struggling to muster up the motivation to stop shoveling garbage into my mouth and start running every day. When I weighed in around 200 lbs I was way more motivated to count calories and attempt to walk-jog every day. I don't know what my damage is! The number on the scale keeps going up and my self esteem and confidence are plummeting.

THE PLAN:

I'm writing here. No escape. I need YOUR HELP to keep me on track. PLEASE HASSLE MY COMMENTS SECTION every day for the next 2 weeks (long enough to get me in the habit)! I will post a picture and running re-cap with stats from my new nike running chip at least 5 days a week for the next two weeks! Starting today. The tentative schedule for the next week is:

Today

Thursday 21st

Friday 22nd

Saturday 23 rd

Monday 25th

Wednesday 27th

Thursday 28th

If you all do a great job and help me out.... I may let you follow along with my planned weight loss goal. To finally get to my goal weight by June 18th. If you're really lucky, I might post my weight. YIKES> If that doesn't motivate me.... I don't know what will!

BIG GIRL BARRETTE

Yesterday Lady sported her first big girl hair barrette. I'v been trying to find something, anything to do with her wild, pin straight hair that stands straight up. It's the cutest thing ever!

Layla liked it too.

LOVE LOVE LOVE....

My new purse that Kday got me for Christmas. It finally came in the mail yesterday- all the way from Istanbul, Turkey!!!
I love it kday! Thank you :)

Later today... a post about KIT in the Kitchen!

KEEPING IT TOGETHER

KIT- In the Kitchen

Do you hate sifting through 14 different tupperware lids trying to find one that fits atop your tub of leftovers so you can throw it in the fridge already? I do. Don't wait until spring to clean out your drawers and cupboards... do it now.

ORGANIZING TUPPERWARE

Step 1: Take a look at your sad, disorganized tupperware drawer and say "goodbye."

Step 2: Make "like piles" of all the tupperware by stacking similar shapes and sizes each in a separate pile. Do the same with the lids.

Step 3: Match up each container with its rightful lid. 1 container & 1 lid... no need to keep 3 extra lids for only 1 container. (p.s this is a great time to assess what sizes you're lacking and need)

Step 4: Here comes the hard part.... THROW AWAY ANY EXTRA LIDS!!!

Step 5: You may want to keep any extra containers for storage around the house. I use mine for organizing our tiny drawer-less refrigerator.

Step 6: Get out your trusty Label Maker - or use permanent marker (it won't last as long) and label each container and matching lid with coordinating numbers.

Example:

All five of the small round Zipl0c lids are #2 and all five of the small round Zipl0c containers are #3. All three of the square GlAd lids are #4, all three of the square GlAd containers are #4.

Any single sets are labled as S1, S2 etc. and they'll be stored in a separate pile.

Step 7: Stack and store in whatever method makes sense to you and your needs.

P.S. Kevin just laughed when I showed him "the system."

THINK HARD

"Lost Generation is a palindrome video that reads the same backwards as forward, but has a totally different meaning."

Swiss Miss

Kday stumbled upon this rad video. Kinda makes you think. I like it.

Useless Thesaurus

I sat down last night to write about what an amazing day we'd shared as a family. I tried to come up with a word that could describe what I was feeling. I couldn't find one. So I tried to find a lot of words that could describe it... couldn't. I looked up every word in the thesaurus that even remotely came close to describing my emotional state... nothing measured up.

I was naively unaware that I would feel different after walking out of the courtroom. But I absolutely felt different. My true and unconditional love for Layla didn't change, but my ability to finally accept myself as her mother-- did. After 4 years of failed fertility treatments, "no" was always the answer to my question of worthiness to be a mom. Yesterday the answer was finally "yes." Yes the judge stated (on the record,) " Without a doubt in my mind- Kday and Sday will make amazing parents and Layla is lucky to be their daughter." Wow.

No longer do I feel like the second best mother for Layla. I finally just simply feel like her mamma. It feels perfect.

Done. Happy. The End.