Three weeks until the due date of our birthmother and we're trying our best be prepare ourselves to be parents. We've heard the "you'll never be ready" speech, but I can't help but try to be as ready as possible. The house has been cleaned from top to bottom (and will probably be cleaned again if the baby isn't born for 3 more weeks), all drawers and cupboards have been organized, and the nursery has been started. If you know me at all, you would know that I am a planner. I would love to say that the nursery is ready down to the last detail but considering the circumstances, it's just a simple beginning. For now, we're mostly ready for the trip to California.
I realized today that regardless of what happens in California my life is going to change in a major way in just 19 days. Honestly, I'm scared. I wish I could put it into more poetic words but I'm not a great writer. Kevin and I have set out on this adventure knowing full well that it could result in 1 of 2 polar opposite scenarios. Our greatest dreams as a couple could come to reality and we could have the chance to finally be parents together. We could be given a gift that we'll cherish forever. Or, one more time our hopes will be dashed and we could fall to the darkest place in our lives. We know that we have the support of friends and family regardless of the outcome, but to face the final countdown to the moments that could change everything is nerve wracking. If things don't work out, life will go on and we'll still be "Shevin." I'm happy in my life today, I'm in a great place and I will remember that. We love each other very much and our life is very blessed and we are happy. But in 19 days our life could change.
Am I ready?
Yes. I can do this. I have strength, Kevin, and God.
6 comments:
The room is so cute! what color did you paint the walls? I can't believe how close things are getting. Keep us up to date.
Shannie! You made me cry! I am so happy for you! You will be ready! You always are!
Love you!!!
Oh Shan, You are so sweet and I know how hard it has been to keep all this inside for so long and probably harder to let it out so people "know"...Your life will change and be so incredible. I have never met anyone so dedicated to other people and this sweet little girl will be absolutely spoiled and loved beyond measure; your house couldn't be any cleaner and the nursery more organized (even simply)...
...Ahhhhh!!!! You guys are going to be parents!
We love you!
That is so exciting. The family Christmas party is going to be a lot different this year! I can't believe that it's so close. Good luck in Cali!!!
YAY kevin and shannon!! That is so exciting!! I hope that it all works out as well as for cal and gena!! This is such a neat experience and I have heard those rough stories before, but as you've said, all you can do is trust in the Lord. You guys will make GREAT parents. We wish you the best!!!
Her room is ADORABLE! I wish I could have gone with Shan to see it in person. When do you leave for Cali? Do you realize you now have less than two weeks left?
Oh and kev, one word--- ARMS.
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