Layla was born 17 weeks ago today. Unbelievable how far we've all come.
The day before we finally got to bring her home from the hospital
Just a few days old.... She looks so much like her birth mom then
How can such a big change happen in just 17 weeks? The Lords work.
What a lovely sight. I love to daydream back to the very first days that I was her mother and I didn't even realize it. California is all such a blur, yet when I'm driving lately it always seems to replay in my mind. I try to process the overwhelming events that occurred and the beginning moments of motherhood. I think it's sort of like the equivalent of someone reminiscing about their labor and delivery. It was different for me, but just as beautiful and miraculous. I try not to forget any details, even the smallest ones. Like the smell of the hospital and the feeling I had when the nurse placed the wrist band on mine and Kday's hands like they would on any other parents. I remember every parking spot that we used when driving to and from the hospital every 3 hours to feed Lady. I remember how small I felt when I walked into the hospital for the very first time to meet with Layla's birthmother and how the nurses looked at us and whispered hushed word that made me feel like we didn't belong there. The exact moment I first saw my daughter and wondering how to hold back my emotions because I was so sad for Layla's birth family yet I was so full of pure joy. The memories are still there, I don't ever want to forget them. I guess that's why I replay every moment I can again in my mind, because Layla is my life now. I can't help but to remember the day my life started. 17 weeks ago.
7.06.09
Just a few days old.... She looks so much like her birth mom then
How can such a big change happen in just 17 weeks? The Lords work.
What a lovely sight. I love to daydream back to the very first days that I was her mother and I didn't even realize it. California is all such a blur, yet when I'm driving lately it always seems to replay in my mind. I try to process the overwhelming events that occurred and the beginning moments of motherhood. I think it's sort of like the equivalent of someone reminiscing about their labor and delivery. It was different for me, but just as beautiful and miraculous. I try not to forget any details, even the smallest ones. Like the smell of the hospital and the feeling I had when the nurse placed the wrist band on mine and Kday's hands like they would on any other parents. I remember every parking spot that we used when driving to and from the hospital every 3 hours to feed Lady. I remember how small I felt when I walked into the hospital for the very first time to meet with Layla's birthmother and how the nurses looked at us and whispered hushed word that made me feel like we didn't belong there. The exact moment I first saw my daughter and wondering how to hold back my emotions because I was so sad for Layla's birth family yet I was so full of pure joy. The memories are still there, I don't ever want to forget them. I guess that's why I replay every moment I can again in my mind, because Layla is my life now. I can't help but to remember the day my life started. 17 weeks ago.7.06.09
5 comments:
Shannon, you make us all realize what a gift and blessing motherhood is. I know we don't know each other well but I feel connected to you because of your journey and I can't even begin to explain how happy I am for you and Kevin. Layla is lucky, so so lucky to have a mama who loves her so much and has such a wonderful story. When I was a little girl my mom always asked what bedtime story I wanted her to tell me and I always answer with "tell me how you got me" and she would proceed with my adoption story. How lucky Layla is to be able to have the same story and feel such love. Hugs to you!
oh shan. you made me cry and smile all at once. i'm remembering back to when ry & i got the news you were adopting. and then when we met in park city and spent the day with you & layla. you really were born to be a mom. sometimes i get jealous of layla cuz i sort of wish you were my mom :) oh i love remembering what naturals you & kday were as layla fussed and ry & i sat back and watched you two work together as parents. it was so normal. so meant to be. thanks for so many sweet memories. i love you. really i do.
Quit making me cry!!! Little Layla has the best mom in the world!
Just catching up on your blog and halloween fun. your pumpkin carving looked amazing!
i absolutely love this post. you are amazing. layla is so lucky to have you. no question in my mind you were meant to be her mom and she was meant to be your little girl. i love your memories looking back on when you became her parents- it makes me smile thinking about it. so amazing that this was heavenly father's plan from the BEGINNING. i love that. i love you guys!
This just inspires me to tell my kids how much I love and appreciate them, again! You are incredible.
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