I sat down last night to write and submit "my story" to Ragnar Relay. (they asked people to write in to share why we're racing, ie: for a cure, to inspire, for fitness.) I sifted through pictures of my past and I remembered the
pain. If you look closely you'll see it in my eyes. You'll see the forced smile that hides the
guilt and
disgust.
I used to HATE the girl in these pictures. I used to beat her up and tell her what a
waste of human space she was. But now I
embrace her for her
strength and ability to try to smile through the internal pain. I
owe my current state of health to
that poor girl...
I am where I am
today - because she made me strive to be better. The
old Sday was hurting and she was just trying her best with the situation she was in at the time. It does no good to hate her anymore. I
love her for not giving up. It's hard to avoid the cycle of negative self talk, but it's not worth the pain. Instead,
self compassion is the route that will help me heal my past wounds and move foreword as I continue my search for the
new Sday.
5 comments:
Good for you! You are so inspiring.
I love you Shannon you are one of the best friend/mommy/wife/people I know. You rock!
love this! you are SO amazing, shannon. keep it up. im so happy to have met you and heard your story.
ps - i just bought the most fab easter dress. you will d-i-e when you see it. too cute.
shannon marie silver day. you inspire me. you amaze me. you are forever my idol. i love you so much. xo
Shannon, you are such an inspiration to me and the whole family-- I know it has been PAINFULLY hard, I am proudest of you kick-starting yourself again after Layla came and life changed tracks. I can see how much happier you are and it's great that you take the time to share your story with others. Keep it up- mom
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