This blog is about "finding sday" and sometimes I'm afraid to admit that I've allowed myself to think that I'm closer to my goal weight than I really am. Then SMACK! Reality hits me like slap to the ego and I see in the mirror the truth about how far away from being comfortable in my body I really am. I had to put on a sweatshirt today people. A not even cute sweatshirt. Just something to cover up my spare tire. My spare tire mocks me. It tells me that no matter what I do, eat or change... it's who I am and it will never leave me a lone. I get disgusted with myself and the sad part is - that disgust doesn't make me want to work harder, it makes me want to climb back in bed and start the day over.
So I know I've come two steps foreword in the quest for finding sday and yesterday I would have told you "I feel great," but today I took one step back. I won't let it stop me and I won't keep complaining about this place I stand. I must accept where I am before I can move foreword. I'll do it tomorrow.
Today, is a stupid pink sweatshirt rainy day.
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I love your idea of leaving a comment on all of the posts you read. I'm not doing very well so far...
I love reading your blog because it's "so real." I've kind of had a day like that today too. Just feeling kind of blah, like I'm so so freaking far away from where I'd like to be in some areas of my life.
Come over and talk anytime you want. I've missed you over the last few weeks!
Agree, thanks for being real Shan. Today does feel like a sweatshirt day with this rainy weather.
ahhhh i sooo know the feeling. and it's so not a motivating feeling for some reason. it just makes you want to sit down and eat something really sugary and fattening! but can i just tell you...you really are so cute in that "stupid pink sweatshirt rainy day" look of yours. i just love me a casual sporty look some days. it's true.
Shannon, I LOVE YOU! There is no other way to say it than that! I am right there along with you and Jami - I had a pink sweatshirt day today - except mine was a jacket and topped with another jacket! YUCK! From this day on whenever I am having an "attack of the spare tire day" I am going to call it a "pink sweatshirt day". PLEASE keep writing you are MY motivation! Luv you! Kristen
Remember the CUTE sweatshirt you go at H&M while you were here? You should wear that. Though I think the pink one is great too. There is nothing wrong with sweatshirts. As my hubbie would say, they are leisure. Love ya Shannie. If it helps, I know exactly how you feel because it's how I feel every morning.
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