MY PSYCHIC CONNECTION SPEAKS AGAIN.... Part 2 of A PEBBLE IN PERSPECTIVE

I have this dear friend you see. She is one of those rare gem's that are pure in heart and is so close to the Lord. Two and a half years ago on Mother's Day I was holding her baby during Sacrament Meeting and she began to cry. Sobbing, she began to explain to me that she had been praying and fasting to ask the Lord to bless Kday and I with a baby. Humbling doesn't even begin to describe this experience. She told me, "It's coming, soon Sday. Soon you'll be a mother. I know it."
That scared the living day lights out of me. I allowed myself to find hope in her words. I just had to trust her. And if she was wrong... then my heart would just break - again. One year later, on Mother's Day, I was flying home from California after being told face to face by Layla's Angel that she chose us to be Layla's parents. My friend was right. "Soon" in the Lord's eyes was 1 year.

Well, here I am again. Starting to wonder, worry, fear, wish, hope, cry over the mystery of whether or not Layla will have a sibling. She doesn't need a sibling any time soon. Really. I actually think I won't be ready for another few years.  A few years in the world of infertility translates to NOW. Start treatments NOW, or lose more weight in hopes of it helping the process NOW, or spend endless hours NOW applying for adoption, get on the waiting list NOW in order to be chosen, save thousands of dollars NOW for treatments or fees...in a few years. Get my point?

So the hamster wheel of infertility has been spinning at mock speed for the past few weeks. Until I asked my friend what she thought. Once again, she delivered the Lord's message. "Prepare now, do your part to get healthy (in case of a completely miraculous pregnancy without treatments) as well as turn in your adoption papers. If you have done everything in your ability, then you don't have to watch the clock. You know Heavenly Father will send another child at the perfect time that only He knows."
Holy cow she's smart. Why should I sit here and waste years on Earth fretting over when and how to try to add to our family.... It will happen the way it is meant to. So be ready and then FIND JOY NOW. Enjoy Layla, Kday, our life and home and every gift the Lord has given us. Get off the hamster wheel and enjoy today.