A PEBBLE IN PERSPECTIVE

My inner thoughts about fertility and adoption have been circling around as if on a hamster cage that is ever spinning. I committed to Lady on 7.6.09 that I would would allow myself to release the worries of fertility vs adoption for an entire 365 days. Heavens knows we prayed long and hard for Layla and I wasn't about to waste our time together worrying about the possibility of another child ever joining our party. In retrospective I think I held up to my promise, which is a challenging feat considering fertility treatments were a daily priority for well over 1,095 days. 
Infertility has been a pebble in my shoe.
While attempting to manage Lady during the Relief Society lesson that one of the Stake Presidency members was offering, I was able to hear a tiny scrap of his wonderful message.  I heard this quote from a talk written before I even began high school, it struck my soul. It resonated with me enough that it felt like someone shoving a stick in the hamster wheel of thoughts and there it was... shut down. The worries stopped circling. The wheel stood still for the first time in countless years. 

"A pebble held close to the eye appears to be a gigantic 

obstacle. Cast on the ground, it is seen in perspective." 

This is from "Finding Joy in Life" by Elder Richard G. Scott: From THE CHURCH

Likewise, problems or trials in our lives need to be viewed in the perspective of scriptural doctrine. Otherwise they can easily overtake our vision, absorb our energy, and deprive us of the joy and beauty the Lord intends us to receive here on earth. Some people are like rocks thrown into a sea of problems. They are drowned by them. Be a cork. When submerged in a problem, fight to be free to bob up to serve again with happiness.

You are here on earth for a divine purpose. It is not to be endlessly entertained or to be constantly in full pursuit of pleasure. You are here to be tried, to prove yourself so that you can receive the additional blessings God has for you. 2 The tempering effect of patience is required. 3 Some blessings will be delivered here in this life; others will come beyond the veil. The Lord is intent on your personal growth and development. That progress is accelerated when you willingly allow Him to lead you through every growth experience you encounter, whether initially it be to your individual liking or not. When you trust in the Lord, when you are willing to let your heart and your mind be centered in His will, when you ask to be led by the Spirit to do His will, you are assured of the greatest happiness along the way and the most fulfilling attainment from this mortal experience. If you question everything you are asked to do, or dig in your heels at every unpleasant challenge, you make it harder for the Lord to bless you. 4

...... More on this topic tomorrow.