While risking sounding like a total hippie, I'm willing to admit that I attended a drum and chanting yoga class on Thanksgiving morning. Intriguing and very inspiring to say the least. My daily time on the yoga mat has evolved from simple physical strengthening to an unreserved connection of temporal body and eternal spirit. My yoga mat has become a place of refuge and a safe place to build my connection with the Holy Spirit. It's a quiet asylum to hear answers to prayers and to express gratitude to God.
The class on Thursday had live music including a didjeridu, drums, guitar and native flutes and chanting. I have been seeking something. Something to stop the crazy talk in my head that has been spiraling out of control. Something to stop the self loathing when I look in the mirror. Something to start the cycle of positivity and self compassion again. I found it on the yoga mat. At the beginning of class I was handed a card with the chant of the day on it. It is the something I've been asking Heavenly Father for.
OM NAMAH SHIVAYA
(ome nah-ma shiv-eye-ya)
"I humbly bow to that Light within me which I am becoming."
It reminded me that I'm on a journey and the destination isn't the reward, the journey is the reward. Despite what my brain and the world wants me to believe, my weight doesn't make me a bad person. That mantra allowed me to be kind to myself and understand that my weight loss plateau over the last two years - is all part of the journey. There is a time and a season for all things and even though I wanted to reach my goal weight 2 years ago, it wasn't the right time. It's OK that I didn't. My journey has brought me to this point for a reason. It was necessary for me to be in this place, doing the things I'm doing - to find growth. I'm on course for becoming the Light within me that I have the potential to be, but I must be humble and know that I am not there yet. The light is not a destination. The journey, the journey is what CREATES the light.
On a much lighter note: This is what Buca and I have been indulging in since we got home.
On a much lighter note: This is what Buca and I have been indulging in since we got home.
5 comments:
Oh wise one. I a glad yoga has helped you to reach such clarity of thought. Wisdom beyond your years.
You are a beautiful, amazing woman. Thank you for sharing.
Oh Zipper! I love how he had to sneak in there too!
I'll be granola and say that it sounds amazing! Was that at Infusion? I love it there.
Oh, I want to get back to yoga. Right now the thought of doing a "down dog" seems painful. Amazing when you are doing it regularly, how natural it becomes and how amazing it feels.
Shan, I'm glad you're learning that hippies aren't as crazy as everyone thinks ; ) I have always had sort of a hippy outlook, and it definitely helps to keep that nasty old self loathing away. You know I deal with this too! Keep it up, and enjoy those days on the couch. I can't remember my last one....
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