Wednesday, January 5, 2011

8GHTEEN MONTHS


January 11 last year Buca legally became Layla.
In two days her birth families will become a part of our past.
For two more days they are a part of our present.
I'm struggling big time to let birth-mom go.
Why? 
Who knows. 
This process doesn't come with an instruction manual.
(which I LOVE to read... really I do. Lame)
Kday and I wrote our goodbye letters to Birth-mom and Birth-father tonight. 

It's now 2:24 am. 
Why can't I let her go?
I need to sit with this--- I have 48 hours to figure it out.
Tick Tock...

1 comments:

Nana Mary said...

Always hard to close chapters in our lives. I remember when I closed the door to having any more children; loved the ones I had, didn't really think I should have any more, but difficult nonetheless to make that decision. Good thing is, if we are open, it means starting a new chapter--the Spirit will guide you through from one to the next. You are good at thinking, pondering, feeling, and then letting the right things happen. Buca is so very lucky! I learn from you every day, Shannon, thanks.