SDAY GOES GREEN

A few weeks ago my friend across the world challenged her readers to 30 days of this. As you can see, she's teeny tiny, itsy bitsy. And although I can sit around and day dream about drinking my way to a size zero, I know better. I know how much work is involved in my upcoming battle against the bulge. But alas, I've decided that the green challenge would do my body good. I'm a few weeks late but in my own time - I've learned is the best time. I've eaten nothing but junk and bounteous proportions of it since my run in with the double pink lines 11 months ago. And it's time to make the change. It's time to challenge my body to regain control over itself and over it's cravings. I've lost 70 lbs before... and as much as I've been dreading it - It's time to do it again.

Naturally, my weight loss has been the last on my priority list. Sleep and finding balance and control over my surroundings have been number one. And surprisingly, I haven't been panicked about where my body is. I'm disgusted by it yes, but panicked that it will stay this way forever.... no. I know that the desire to change HAS TO COME FROM WITHIN. It can't be forced, coerced, or even challenged by anyone but yourself. I know the change will come from within and I'm certain the time will come when I feel like training for races and counting every single calorie that enters my body. But right now I need to take baby steps. I don't have the energy - emotional or physical to push my body back into a daily running routine, or to dive in head over heals into the weight loss journey.... yet. My body and my mind tell me "I will get there. Just give me time." All things come when the time is right.

So as for baby steps - this one I can handle. A 30 day challenge from D and from myself. I plan to replace 2 meals a day with a green smoothie. I've configured the ingredients to add up to either 200 calories for a breakfast smoothie or 400 calories for a lunch or smoothie. In conjunction with 100 calorie protein based snacks and a healthy 3rd meal.... I think I will be on my way to kick starting my body back into the place I know it wants to be. I can already tell you that I won't follow it every day - I know what you're thinking "why challenge yourself to something you know you can't do?" Because that's the purpose of a "challenge" to me, to try to do my best at something that seems unattainable. And my best is what I can do.

Wish me luck. My 30 days starts today.  And because I'm a little crazy in the head - I'm even debating posting my weekly weight.
Wait. That might just be a little too crazy for my liking. We'll see. Let me sleep on it.... rather - let me wake up all night with sick kids and attempt to sleep on it :)