JOGGLING- the definition

They say: If you fall off the horse a thousand times... get back on a thousand and one.

I feel like this is the ten thousandth time I'm getting back on the horse.

It always feels better the moment I get back on - than it feels to stand next to the horse and debate walking away.

It's been 4 weeks since I've started working with Mary Foss, ie: The Boss Foss. My first day back on the horse I attempted a brisk walk - I barely made it 1.5 miles. And my body hurt. It ached, it cried, it moaned. And I felt like I wanted to get off that horse, walk hobble away and never look back. Ever.

But I kept going.

It' hasn't been as consistent and I or The Boss Foss would like it to be - but the mornings after a decent nights sleep, I've been waking up at 6am to walk.

A few weeks into my walking - my body hurt less and less and I even began to feel the twitching of a desire to run jog. It's Joggling actually. A mix of hobbling and a mix of jogging. My body still hurts and my ankles feel like they're going to give out beneath me at any step. I'm carrying so much weight I really can't call it running or jogging because it's a slow and decrepit shuffle... but it's the preface to an actual jog. "Someday,"  I chant under my labored wheezing, "someday you'll run again, someday."

My 1.5 miles grew to 2.5 miles and there it began - the bits and pieces of joggling between a few minutes of walking. It added up to a total of less than a half mile.

Today felt different - a good different. For the past two weeks I've been forcing myself to get in bed at 10 pm. And the last two nights, Ohwee even slept soundly through the night without waking me. And today I joggled the farthest I have since I started - .613 miles - non stop. What a feeling of accomplishment I felt. A feeling I haven't felt since birthing my son. Wow, I did that. It's been a while since I've accomplished anything with my body.  That's how down in the dumps my body is right now. But I joggled over a half mile and I loved it.

My body is screaming at me this afternoon and my right ankle usually causes me problems for the rest of the day on my walk days. But it's proof that I'm back on the horse and riding again. Giddy-Yup