BABY WEIGHT

DECEMBER 31 2011.

It sounds a little psychoanalytical and maybe just psycho... but I think I realized one of the reasons I haven't lost a single pound since delivering Owen almost 1 year ago. I have two reasons - but the first is I'm still holding onto my baby weight in part because it's kind of like holding onto my pregnancy. Sounds crazy - I'm well aware of that. On one of my recent walks I came to this conclusion and it made so much sense to me. I loved being pregnant. I waited so long to experience a pregnancy and I didn't want it to end.
I really think I've been holding onto my baby weight as a last ditch effort to hold onto the joys of pregnancy.

But here we are, an entire year after my last trimester and it's time to let go. Remember how "Letting Go" is part of my new years intention? It refers mostly to letting go of my baby weight. It no longer serves me. Owen is my reminder of the joys of pregnancy and if I ever hope to experience pregnancy again - I need to let go of this one. And I need to take care of my body again, so it can take care of me. People often question me about "why do you think you all of a sudden got pregnant when you did?" My answer is - I was finally ready. I wasn't at my "thinnest" but I was at my healthiest. I was mentally the healthiest I've ever been, I was doing what I loved - which was running, I was enjoying my every day life and taking care of my body. My life was in order and it's time to find that order again. Not because I'm seeking another pregnancy (not yet... maybe in a few years!),  but because I'm seeking the SDAY that I know is inside and feeling suffocated by all the weight that's holding her back.

So cheers to letting go of my pregnancy and baby weight! Finally. A year later.

SOMETIMES IT'S HARD TO LET GO OF THE THINGS WE LOVE...
JUST ASK RIDER :)