SEVEN - PLUS 999

Seven plus about nine hundred and ninety nine, is the number of draft posts I've written and the number of times I think about things each week to write about. I fear I've neglected my little space on the inter-web and that makes me sad. It's not a matter of not having totally super awesome topics to write about - it's been a matter of discipline.

I am a very disciplined person - some might not think so by the looks of my outward appearance. But the focus of my so called skill depends on the season of life I'm in. Pre-kids, I was a really disciplined blogger and in total control of my diet and exercise. Then with Layla I maintained my writing focus and geared it toward the topic of parenting. The boys surprised me and all discipline for writing and heath sorta flew the coup, but flew right back in - just into a different location.

Over the past two years I've been very disciplined in keeping a tidy home, feeding balanced meals to the children, spending time with the kids outside, teaching them important skills, and loving them for their individuality. And lets be honest - posting a picture to 1nstagram or writing a quick post on FB really IS more convenient doable for a busy mom. But lately I don't feel like it's enough for me. I want to think hard again, I want to dig through my feelings and sort out my thoughts - now that I actually HAVE thoughts again :) Not sure I had many variable thoughts with a 2 yr old and 2 newborns, but again, now the desire to write is tugging at my brain cells. I feel like there is room now for me to add a few more areas of discipline back into my own self care routine. Over the past year I've been trying to learn about healthier, "cleaner" ways to prepare food for my family and beginning to find more discipline in my own diet. I started my 40 for 40 Challenge that I'll post more about tomorrow. It's time to crack down and make time in the day for my space here again and become a more present person each day in order to turn those drafted posts into published words. I forgot how good it feels to focus some of the control on myself instead of just on my environment.