SIX'S

How does one feel when they find out they're ADOPTING A BABY IN 6 WEEKS....

And.......

HAVING A BABY IN 6 MONTHS!?

Seriously, this is happening people. 

I'm big FAT and pregnant
AND LOVING EVERY STINKING MINUTE OF IT

Cheers to me for keeping this somewhat of a secret for three months!

Thus the new car, the sudden need to change housing locations, and the total lack of attention I've given this blog.

And after MD appointments every other week and then every two weeks,

I'm finally out of the woods and ready to celebrate this super radness!

I'll spare you the details for now, it's been a very very very emotionally exhausting week here in the sday household. 

So we're getting out of dodge for a few days and then I'll be here to answer all you eager questions.

As usual, the "russian spy" will keep a safe watch over our house while we're gone.

Thanks for waiting around for me to finally spill my guts.

MOMENT OF TRUTH...

 Do you ever feel like a piece of knotted up old beach wood, something so unappealing? Sometimes I feel like I've been chewed up by too many storms, tangled to my bones and spit out on the shoreline, left as an eye sore. Surrounded by many a greater beauties and gracious sights beside me.

 The path ahead of me feels like a resemblance to this scene. But instead of sauntering through the forrest and passing each tree trunk while seeking my next move... I feel like I've been strapped to the front of a freight train and we're plowing through at top speed. I have no room to breathe, let a lone think about where I'm headed.

 I'm hoping to find some clarity tonight and through the next 7 weeks. I need to find that clarity before I get so lost I can't find my way back to the life I finally had a grip on. A life I was loving so much every day and every moment.

These two... these two keep me on track though. They are the light of my life. And they are what reminds me of how worth it this fight is.
So tonight, will be the moment of truth. I kind of just want it to be over with so I can move foreword and enjoy my new journey. It's a journey I've been waiting 6 years for. And tomorrow you'll find out where exactly that journey is going to take our little family.

STUDY TIME

Our adoption "Home Study" is happening tonight at 7pm. 

Too bad I didn't post about last time? Yikes, I was a wreck.

Literally took 2 whole weeks off work and scrubbed every square inch of my house, top to bottom with a toothbrush and Murphy's S0ap. 

Seriously.

Don't believe me? 

Ask Kday.

This time... I'll only spend tomorrow cleaning.

Because there are some more important "concerns" that are worrying me.

But they'll be addressed later this week.

Then I can let the cat out of the bag.

And since my home will be under the white glove inspection and study of a social worker tonight...

Why don't you go HERE and study this totally radical post. 

All I can say about the post is, "dito" and "I couldn't have said it better myself."

And don't forget to click on the "scripture link" at the end of her post. It sums it up perfectly.

BUCA BABY TURNS 2!

It was a wonderful CELEBRATION

LAYLA TURNING 2!!!

A CARNIVAL of sorts!

And a DARLING birthday girl with a BALLOON HAT made just for her

 A party isn't a party without POPCORN

 And CAKE, with elephants balancing on top!

 BEST FRIENDS arrived

Layla couldn't be HAPPIER!

GAMES were played

SWIMMING was a definite

SO MANY people to celebrate such a ANGEL!

She MADE A WISH with the blow of the candle

And DEVOURED the yumminess of the whole party.

New BABY DOLLS were gifted

A PINATA for tradition

Full of CANDY and CLOWN NOSES 

It TASTED so good!

She couldn't RESIST!

She seamed so GROWN UP

ANYTHING for LAYLA

We LOVE her so much!

 And don't forget your PEANUTS!

4th FINDINGS

Our 4th was a wonderful day. I will always be reminded as I stand on the edge of the parade, of the emotional state I was in 2 years ago. I reminisced the day that I checked my phone every five seconds and wondered when Layla's birth mother's water would break. I disappointedly went to sleep that night wondering if we would ever get "the call" to go meet our daughter. 

This year a different song sang in my heart. I relished in the perfection that she is in mine and Kday's life.  We still await another adoption and my mind reals constantly over the possible outcomes. I found my mind wandering from taffy sliding across the hot pavement, to wondering if Layla will be celebrating her freedoms with a sibling next year.

But I slid my worries about the lack of control over my future family growth into the back of my mind... for another day perhaps. And we enjoyed our day. It was filled with a depth of gratitude for the freedoms I can celebrate. There are many freedoms that are sacrificed when a person experiences infertility, loss and even the through the miracle of adoption. But on the 4th I chose to focus on the freedoms I do have. I have the freedom to chose to enjoy the journey I'm on and create a happy family within the means I have.

So when you find yourself feeling as though you're backed up against a wall and without the freedom to chose your next move, my advice is to hold onto the ones you love and move foreword without looking back.

PARTY TIME

It's GO TIME people!

We barely recovered from partying up the 4th of July

Just in time for Layla's birthday bash tonight

We're off to pick up birthday cakes, balloons, and peanuts for the circus party

We'll see YOU there.

And if you're too far away to attend...

Don't fret- She is going to document it for us again

We'll be here tomorrow with a post-party recap!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BUCA BABY!!!!

CHILLAX BABY

I know that I super suck at posting right now. But just chillax, you'll have LOTS of posts to read in a few weeks when you all become current on the happenings of my crazy life. For now, Lets vote on which house we should buy, shall we?!

MY BRAIN'S CHOICE:

Better price for more finished house

5 bed, 4 bath finished

new paint, new carpet, new kitchen floor

finished laundry room on main level

awesome entry from garage into mud room

smaller kitchen, smaller yard

MY HEART'S CHOICE:

Higher price and less finished house

3 bed 2 bath finished

2 unfinished bed, 1unfinished bath, 1 laundry room unfinished

Great back yard

Nice big kitchen

Crummy entry from garage into living room

No deck

Cute exterior

 PLEASE VOTE! Which house can you see the day family clan raising all sorts of children in?