Less than 24 hours to the celebration. Lady turns one tonight at 12:29 am. I will put the party planning tasks down, tiptoe into her room and whisper "Happy Birthday" to her while I rock her until we fall asleep.
I can't wait.
Monday, July 5, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
LADY LIBERTY
Yesterday started out a rough, I went into it feeling like I had to just "get through" it. Then I found myself amidst a Mama Moment. Kday was in the parade and he rode up on his bike - pleasing the crowd with his totally cool wheely skills.... and he kissed his daughter on the cheek.
The rest of the day was perfection. Pictures speak a thousand words - so hope these do the day justice.
The rest of the day was perfection. Pictures speak a thousand words - so hope these do the day justice.
Lot's more to say about yesterday... it's 2:08 am so I'm gonna wait till later. Peace Out.
FLASHBACK - JULY 4 2009
ROUND 8
JULY 4, 2009
Independence Day - Last year
I was 200% positive I was going to get "The Call" at the parade
Showered, dressed in my cutest outfit, and ready to drive to California....
Kday and I rode our cruizers to the parade and I checked my phone
I checked my phone over and over and over
and over
and over
We went swimming at my mom's house and I didn't get my hair wet because I wanted to look good when we got to California. And I checked my phone
over and over and over and over
We went to the family BBQ - I thought "how perfect would it be if we got the call right now, while we're with the entire family!
We didn't
We went to the fireworks and I kept my phone in my hand the entire night. I looked around and tried to soak the entire day in. Would this be our last "single" 4th of July?
The fireworks ended - I hung my head and we walked home hand in hand with Kday.
We climbed into bed and l remember laying on my back next to Kday and
I said, "I can't believe it Kevin, I really thought she was coming today."
He said, "I know Shan - but today was a perfect day together. I'm kind of glad we got to enjoy it.... she'll come. When she's ready."
I tried to sleep.
And somewhere around 4:30 am (Utah time) when the sky was quiet and the moon was full... It was time to get the party started.
While I was deep in slumber.... I had no clue what was about to rock my world...
JULY 4, 2010 POST WILL BE COMING SOON. BUSY PREPPING FOR LADY'S BIRTHDAY PARTY - SO I'LL POST ABOUT THIS YEARS INDEPENDENCE DAY - TONIGHT. THEN WE'LL CONTINUE HERE WITH 2 POSTS A DAY UNTIL JULY 6TH!
A FLASHBACK POST - AND A CURRENT DAY POST----
AND DEPENDING ON HOW MUCH YOU'RE ALL ENJOYING THE FLASHBACK POSTS - THEY WILL CONTINUE UNTIL WE BROUGHT LADY HOME... OR WE'LL JUST WRAP IT UP ON HER BIRTHDAY - LEAVE A COMMENT WITH YOUR OPINION.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
FLASHBACK - JULY 3 2009
ROUND 7
JULY 3, 2009
It's my pay day
1 week to Lady's due date
Worked.
Enjoyed it actually. Despite the un-nerving phone call from our ridiculously under-qualified caseworker.
Wrapped up all my work, patient documentation, and cleaned out my cupboard... I better not be coming back to work again on Monday.
Kday took me on a surprise date. It was awesome.
REAL SLC soccer game. We tried to squeeze in as many dates as possible these last few weeks, knowing we had a rough road ahead of us.
Gosh he's a super cool husband - he'll make a super cool dad too
Kday's sister came into town from Switzerland. Perfect timing.
I was baby bump jealous of her. Very jealous.
Busted out the chairs and caution tape to reserve our seats for the 4th of July parade tomorrow. It's lame - but we freaking LOVE it. "I really don't even need to put a seat out for me anyways... I'm sure we'll get the call tomorrow at the beginning of the parade...."
Came home and tried to sleep again. I'm so tired. But I can't stop worrying.
I better set my alarm for extra early so I can shower in the morning... so I look good when we get to California.
Oh, and better charge my phone---- you know, for "the call"
JULY 3, 2009
It's my pay day
1 week to Lady's due date
Worked.
Enjoyed it actually. Despite the un-nerving phone call from our ridiculously under-qualified caseworker.
Wrapped up all my work, patient documentation, and cleaned out my cupboard... I better not be coming back to work again on Monday.
Kday took me on a surprise date. It was awesome.
REAL SLC soccer game. We tried to squeeze in as many dates as possible these last few weeks, knowing we had a rough road ahead of us.
Gosh he's a super cool husband - he'll make a super cool dad too
Kday's sister came into town from Switzerland. Perfect timing.
I was baby bump jealous of her. Very jealous.
Busted out the chairs and caution tape to reserve our seats for the 4th of July parade tomorrow. It's lame - but we freaking LOVE it. "I really don't even need to put a seat out for me anyways... I'm sure we'll get the call tomorrow at the beginning of the parade...."
Came home and tried to sleep again. I'm so tired. But I can't stop worrying.
I better set my alarm for extra early so I can shower in the morning... so I look good when we get to California.
Oh, and better charge my phone---- you know, for "the call"
Friday, July 2, 2010
FLASHBACK - JULY 2 2009
ROUND 6--- it's a doozy!
JULY 2, 2009
8 days until Lady's due date
Although, I'm positive she's coming in two days... Based on what Kday's niece said when asked "When will Aunt Sday and Uncle Kday get a baby?"
She responded, "At the beginning of the parade."
"What parade?"
"The one in the summer with all the horses and candy."
"The 4th of July parade?"
"Ya and it will be a girl"she said.
This conversation happened 4 months prior to us even being contacted by Layla's birth mother
I'm frantically cleaning (nesting), organizing, & doing baby laundry over and over. (it's so cute)
I dropped some Young Women's paperwork off at the Beehive advisors house (because I'm just sure that I won't be there on Sunday)
Worked. Please let today be my last Thursday. I'm ready for my job as a mom.
Cleaned some more
Re-packed baby's suitcase full of bottles-diapers-clothes-and a million other things that we didn't need
Went to the SLC Temple with Kday after he got off work. Loved it.
Home- tried to go to bed-
Panicked. What if we get the call tomorrow. Am I ready? I better go re-read some more chapters in that baby book. Panicked again.
Cried--- a lot. Asked for a blessing. Cried some more.
Wondered what I would do if we came home empty handed and I had to go back to work again. What will I tell the neighbors. What will my family think about adoption. Will they still support us in the next effort, if all this is a bust? Will I survive it? Is Kday going to think I'm crazy if I lose my mind after this all falls through? What if the baby doesn't like me? What if the birth parents change their mind after 10 days? What will I say to the birth mom to thank of of this miracle? Will she think I'm stupid and pathetic? What if she thinks I'm too fat when we get there and she changes her mind? What will the baby look like? Is the house ready? Am I ready? What if I don't know how to hold her or change her diaper? Did I already worry about what if the baby doesn't love me?
+ 12,000,000 other irrational thoughts
Kevin reassured me that I had nothing to worry about. This baby was meant to be a part of our Eternal Family.
I Tried to sleep.
Couldn't
Cleaned, cried and worried some more...
I'm frantically cleaning (nesting), organizing, & doing baby laundry over and over. (it's so cute)
I dropped some Young Women's paperwork off at the Beehive advisors house (because I'm just sure that I won't be there on Sunday)
Worked. Please let today be my last Thursday. I'm ready for my job as a mom.
Cleaned some more
Re-packed baby's suitcase full of bottles-diapers-clothes-and a million other things that we didn't need
Went to the SLC Temple with Kday after he got off work. Loved it.
Home- tried to go to bed-
Panicked. What if we get the call tomorrow. Am I ready? I better go re-read some more chapters in that baby book. Panicked again.
Cried--- a lot. Asked for a blessing. Cried some more.
Wondered what I would do if we came home empty handed and I had to go back to work again. What will I tell the neighbors. What will my family think about adoption. Will they still support us in the next effort, if all this is a bust? Will I survive it? Is Kday going to think I'm crazy if I lose my mind after this all falls through? What if the baby doesn't like me? What if the birth parents change their mind after 10 days? What will I say to the birth mom to thank of of this miracle? Will she think I'm stupid and pathetic? What if she thinks I'm too fat when we get there and she changes her mind? What will the baby look like? Is the house ready? Am I ready? What if I don't know how to hold her or change her diaper? Did I already worry about what if the baby doesn't love me?
+ 12,000,000 other irrational thoughts
Kevin reassured me that I had nothing to worry about. This baby was meant to be a part of our Eternal Family.
I Tried to sleep.
Couldn't
Cleaned, cried and worried some more...
Thursday, July 1, 2010
FLASHBACK - JULY 1 2009
ROUND 5
JULY 1, 2009
At midnight - it was officially 182.5 days through the year and 182.5 days left of the year.
I ran - or at least I wrote down that I ran.
I worked - and secretly read baby books at WSU.
I accompanied the youth in my ward to the Oquirrh Mountain Temple Open House - on a fun bus.
The temple was amazing - the artwork inside was breathtaking
I found Kday standing speechless in front of an unseen before picture of Christ and an infant - Kday was crying- it touched my heart. He is ready for this baby more than I am.
The weather was bizarre
Kday and I drove home in a lightning storm- in The Accord
It was romantic.
I'm positive this baby is coming tomorrow. I just can't stand one more day of work. Please call--- Stupid caseworker who is worse than talking to a rock --- please call and tell me "it's time"
