FINDING CONFIDENCE AT 34 WEEKS

First off... Holy smoke-oly! I'm almost 35 weeks. I can't believe it. Can I go back to the 30 week mark and pause time? Or could it at least snow already so it actually feels like Christmas?

After years, and years of battling my weight and then working for years and years to lose it the slow, hard way... I finally gained confidence in myself.  I worked every day for 2 years to plan my meals, count calories, weekly weigh ins, learned how to say no to food, learn how to make better choices, start exercising, and finally I learned that weight is connected to our bodies through emotions. Don't believe me? Ever watch an episode of B1ggest L0ser and notice when the contestants have a bad week with little weight loss while they deal with their emotional demons, and once they confront the issue and push through it to let go of whatever was "weighing them down," they have a great weigh in with massive amounts of weight lost?! During my 2 year weight loss journey it was very rare for me to lose more than 1-2 lbs per week. Every few months I would rock out a 3-5 lb loss and it was always after I worked really hard emotionally and find a new piece of the real sday... and only then would my body really start to let go of the hard to lose weight. As each pound came off I was forced to look inside myself to find the real me.

It's a little crazy but as I've watched my body move further from my goal weight in the past 12 months, I have also felt like I am losing a sense of myself all over again. Except this time I won't let that happen, I won't get lost in my weight and I won't get lost in my billowing body shape. I'm still me, the new me, the more confident and happy me.

So as part II of my post-partum weight loss agenda, I need to remember to tap into that confidence. I've lost 70 lbs the hard way before.... I can do it again. It will be harder to do with 3 kids, but I just have to keep reassuring the reflection in the mirror each day that I WILL DO IT AGAIN. I CAN do it again. I love being pregnant... but when that's over, I need to remember how much I love being the new sday. And I will reclaim her, she'll be different, but so worth the hard work to find. She's waiting for me. I can't let her down.
:)