FINDING GRATITUDE AT 34 WEEKS

While attempting to still hold a down dog in Yin-Yang Yoga on monday night I was super irritated that my center of gravity was off and I could hardly muster up the arm strength to hold myself up without quivering triceps,  eventually having to submit to the pose and dropping to a puppy dog. During my final pose of the night I reminded myself of the blessing it is that I can't fold in half like I used to because of the growing baby in my bump. As I fretted over my weight and my growing body (not just my belly, but my arms, thighs and mostly back side)... I was torn because I also felt such a sense of gratitude for that same growing belly because it conceived a child totally naturally.

During all my years of infertility I cursed my body so many times for failing me, for failing to do the main job of a woman. I loathed my body and it's dysfunctional state. And yet after 7 years of listening to my daily insults - my body turned around and performed perfectly. It held no grudge.

So at 8:43 pm on Monday night I decided that I owe my body a huge debt of gratitude and the best way I can prove my indebtedness is to promise my body that I will be healthy and physically active after this pregnancy. To take care of myself and return to a healthy lifestyle is the best way to say my daily thanksgivings to this hard working body of mine. It's done it's best to succeed and I will do everything in my power to return the favor... it's the least I can do to say "thanks for finally fulfilling your job as a woman, you're the best!"

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