This year's intention hasn't come to me as easily as in years past. I stewed over a few different ideas and I tried to "create" an intention. But that's not how it's supposed to work, the universe is supposed to tell me what my year will be about. It usually just speaks to me and without any thought, it's there and it feels right. I think I've have a hard time finding my mojo because I'm in such a place of transition. Transition with this baby, my home, my body, my daily routine is even on the verge of a complete makeover. It's been hard to figure out where the year 2012 is headed. I began to worry that I was wandering aimlessly into the year... when BAM! It hit me (the way it's supposed to) BALANCE. I need to regain a balance in my life.
I'm sure you're laughing out loud right now... just like my beautiful son laughs at me.
I know what you're thinking... "
Are you freaking out of your mind sday?! Your intention is to find BALANCE as you're about to go into labor with your third child whom of which is being added to your family that has tripled in size in the past 2.5 years. You're living with your parents at the age of 30 and you've lost any and all physical health gains you made over the past 4 years. You're about to attempt to nurse a baby, which you've never done before and will obviously complicate to the new addition. You're life is turned inside out and flipped upside down and you think you're somehow going to find and maintain BALANCE in the midst of this tidal wave?! You're a nut job."
But hello, have you met me? Since when has a challenge ever scared me off the edge of a cliff? I'm sday, I do hard things, I look for an excuse to find an opportunity. I'm positive this is going to be a hard feat but it's what I FEEL like my life needs right now. That's me, listening to my inner voice and running with what it's telling me. Fall 2010 into spring 2011, before we found out about Rider's pending adoption... my life was in such balance. I was getting up early to run and event train in the mornings, I was maintaining my house, budget, groceries and a few hours of work each week. Layla and I had an awesome schedule worked out and life seemed perfectly balanced. Of course that's when I knew something big was about to happen, I felt it coming. And sure enough, 2011 brought mega awesome changes. I wouldn't trade my balanced life for the changes that have rocked my boat in a million years. I'm just saying that 2012 is bringing me back to my feet and the need to get RE-GROUNDED and attempt to find a BALANCE in my new life.
I'm well aware that it may not be total and complete balance over the entirety of my daily life. But if I can find a little balance between my physical health, mental health, motherhood, wifehood, and daily routine... I'll have completed my intention. It should prove to be an INTERESTING AND EXCITING YEAR. Wow. I can't believe that just less than a year ago I found out about Rider, then I ran a few 1/2 marathons and found out I was pregnant. Then we moved, received our little Monkey man and here I am... hoping to pop any minute. What a ride. I don't want to ever get off this awesome ride... I think I'll buy a season pass.
